2003-08-15

2003-08-15 - 8:14 a.m.

I'm wearing Anna's Rainy Day Lion T-shirt today. Isn't it great?

2003-08-14 - 9:57 p.m.

Well, the back panel of Mom's Christmas jacket is done. Have I ever shown you all the pattern? It's over at Monkeysuits - on page four of the pattern index. I love how easily it's coming together. Puppy Love - which is also at Monkeysuits on page 2 - is taking forever to dry, since I ended up wet blocking it so that the cotton (which is unmercerized) would shrink up a little. It's going to shrink about 15% when it's sewn and washed again, and getting it closer before seaming seemed like a good idea. Tomorrow I'll cast on for the left front panel of Prematurely Grey. At this pace, I might actually get everything done in time for Christmas. I would also like to get started on the Nicole from White Lies, although working on stuff for myself is unappealing right now. Especially anything remotely sexy. Finally we've discovered the way to dampen my normally infallible libido.

Anyway.

I'm still on Vicodin for migraines. Every time the med wears off I'd like to crawl into a sensory deprivation chamber to get away from light and smell - which both make me nauseated when my head's pounding like this. But with the med I'm just numb all the time. It's mildly entertaining. All my emotions are just as dampened as the physical pain. To keep myself on track and operating at all, I'm running little counseling sessions internally.

Me: "...fucked up again blah blah blah, not attractive blah blah blah they always want someone better blah blah blah".

Therapist: "...always blame yourself blah blah blah risk-taking is necessary blah blah blah stronger than this blah blah blah."

Now if only I could pay myself $80 and go out for a bottle of good wine.

Before I collapse into a medicated stupor for the night, here's a gigantic thank you to Art Teacher. His words today were gracious and loving.

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