2003-08-12 - 6:36 p.m.
I know, I've been a huge pain in the ass the last two entries. Sorry, everybody. Believe it or not, I'm trying not to mope. There's no point, this is nobody's fault, and I do get to keep my friend. So it could be a lot worse. There's just a lot in my head right now.
I spent a couple of hours on the bike trail today, including a stop for a sandwich and fruit on the river shore. It was good. I saw a five-point buck. Unfortunately, he moved before I could get much of a picture. We'll see how it comes out. Yesterday there was a flock of wild turkeys.
As I was riding, I was watching men react to me. There aren't that many women on the trail, and I see a lot of the same people over and over. One of the unfortunate results of this dumping is that, in combo with some of the problems with J, I feel about as attractive as a wet paper bag. That really sucks, because I was doing pretty well in that department a few months back. I felt pretty, and it was showing up in men's reactions to me. It's going to take me a good long time to get that confidence back. Damn.
Better news: I put in another few inches on Mom's jacket today. It's starting to take shape. Thank goodness that this back is the biggest piece - this broken rib pattern is starting to bore me to tears. Pictures of it - and of all the pieces of Puppy Love, which I'm sewing together - tomorrow.
Other good news: it looks like I'll get to meet devBear on Saturday, which is terrific. She rocks. How many women do you know who knit, spin, teach yoga, write code, follow cycling AND write very supportive mails to strangers? I'm very excited.
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