2003-04-28

2003-04-28 - 10:53 a.m.

I've been making an effort to refocus on my job. Let's face it: to get something better, I'm going to have to go back to school. This B.A. in German and Art History isn't going to impress anyone. Hell, it didn't impress me to get it. And while I've had progressively more responsibility in different jobs, the current one is self-limiting. I'm not sorry I stuck with it, but it isn't a lifetime choice.

So this is how I see things. I could go back to school. Study pretty much anything, assuming I'm willing to spend the money AND take background (read: undergrad) courses. I could change jobs. I could self-educate (as I did when learning Filemaker and learning SQL). Or I could relax and live my life.

For now, living simply takes priority. J and I are still week-to-week. He's settling in, with nothing really comfortable. So staying simple, having a quiet mind, is paramount.

It's the oddest sensation; I can look at my life and choices from above right now and see where they're leading me. That they have good and not-so-good points. But I'm enjoying the present nontheless.

In the job, I'm spending more time on each project, trying to regain an old standard of accomplishment. I stopped trying to do good work a while back, partly because I work for someone who's not good about giving all the information necessary for me to do my work well. She makes success difficult. But now I'm trying to find a happier medium, a place where I do the best with what she gives me. The trick is to have that be _enough_.

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